May 2013
Whilst i still crash i can actually feel happy now
But i think my anxiety is a bit worse
I have been doing art every day this week for like 6 hours and will go in again to day to try and finish my exam
i dont know if i want to stay on at school or not or if i physically can
this is the worst year ever
Anonymous asked: you're a beautiful person inside and out, you look like a star from an old movie and you seem very passionate. you'll do great things one day
i think the pills are actually helping
like i thought they wouldnt at all
maybe its placebo i dont know
but i have motivation to do art and i havent crashed properly in a while
like even though everything is shit i coping with it and thats better
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i dunno saying im sad for no reason isnt totally true
i seem to be fine around adriano really and i think a lot of my low self esteem comes from loving him like being rejected and feeling not good enough
that kinda thing
i think it gave me crazy times of trying to be better and look atleast ok and thats resulted in hating myself for him not liking me back ya no
even though charlie...
apparently the medication im on can make ur blood pressure drop when u stand up so that explains all the dizzy shit going on hopefully that stops
feeling better rn than before its been pretty tough
also decided im not glamourising shit
if my emotions are treated like nothing by everyone else i can do that too
Anonymous asked: This is in response to the Anon partially. Thing is the best way to get over depression is to play it down as if its nothing, if you keep feeling sorry for yourself and let it overwhelm you then you won't get better
Anonymous asked: i don't mean to offend you but can you stop romantasising your depression as if it's a cool thing to have please :( i hate the way you talk about it. it's something that takes over people's lives completely and you make it sound like it's nothing, it demeans it completely. but i understand this is a personal blog and you can post what you want so do go ahead and i hope...
ive been continuously watching the walking dead
its p sick
im also p sick i think its the anti depressants
i feel numb and weird but at the same time want to just pass out for years
im very jealous of everyone and need to fix myself
Anonymous asked: why did you think a picture of your ass was necessary?
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Been asked by brendan to show y’all this event
https://www.facebook.com/events/119446461587150/?ref=notif¬if_t=plan_user_invited
Basically its a day for lads to wear skirts and such and ladies can wear suits too!
It could be seen as problematic if it was talking about trans* issues but its infact for inequality and saying you can wear whatever the fuck you want.
Lets get rid of these...
Art are pissed at me and im on a D (but they called home for no reason and were so so dumb and lied about me being late to lesson so fuk them)
Photography is chilled but i gotta catch up on so much im on less than a C in coursework
I went the doctors again and had the nice woman and she was real nice n gave me anti depressants so this shall be interesting
April 2013
dying because i dont have a study leave and there is no way i can do a2 aswell as these next couple of months
so im looking up floristry n photography courses
didnt go to school today i went to see iron man with adriano instead and had a much better day than i would have at school
thing is my parents are pissed cos school rang and they couldnt contact me because i was in the cinema……..
feeling super negative about school again
i have my next doctors appointment this friday hopefully this doctor is nicer and actually does something
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dont want 2 admit the fact i have no friends now
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really having a bad day
i told adriano about the doctors n that and he wasnt supportive at all even though its such a big deal to me
and i guess he just isnt the friend i thought he could b i dont know
i should be doing work buti cant move
but my eyeshadow looks nice
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i think im forever distracting myself to feel ok
but like that cant be good
how can i distract myself but do no thing productive
what a waste of time aye
excited to finish this year
Because of the crystal-clear water, Flathead Lake...
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dream camping location in the US
[[MORE]]got tons of work to do this week to catch up after these three weeks of being off
all my coursework is in for friday
and i have to do so so much art because i dont think i have long til my exam
and i have to finish adrianos sewing
i feel ok about school i can handle the last couple weeks when i thought i couldnt
i need to look for alternatives to a2
and do my photography website to b...
i struggled through this year and ive got to the point of having three weeks till my exams left
but these three weeks will include so much work and i will end up failing everything
can i quit?
i cant do this but i know i will be fucked with no a levels?
well thats what people will say
but a levels teach you shit all and i want to travel and do what i want not learn your shitty shit and waste...
struggliang to sleep i think my hormones are funny cos my depo injection is due
im totally dying over charlie because hes been real great recently and i feel good about him and thats nice
but i think its cos im tricking myself and not thinking and holding everything in till i explode and die
i made my next doctors apointment but its in three weeks and i just want someone to fix me now
i have a...
to do list
email teacher about coursework .2
re do my coursework .1
take some pics of me and charlie 4 photography
take some pictures of my family through window
do some sewing for photography
revise for philosophy
finish my english books
book another doctors appointment and hand in the shitty test
call driving teacher lady and finally book lessons
make photography website
take photos...
so much sad in one little nancy and i cant even talk to my friend about it because he will be nasty
thankful to have this next week pretty much off but the dread of school is just prolonged
