Whilst i still crash i can actually feel happy now But i think my anxiety is a bit worse I have been doing art every day this week for like 6 hours and will go in again to day to try and finish my exam i dont know if i want to stay on at school or not or if i physically can this is the worst year ever
Anonymous asked: you're a beautiful person inside and out, you look like a star from an old movie and you seem very passionate. you'll do great things one day
i think the pills are actually helping like i thought they wouldnt at all maybe its placebo i dont know but i have motivation to do art and i havent crashed properly in a while like even though everything is shit i coping with it and thats better
[[MORE]] i dunno saying im sad for no reason isnt totally true i seem to be fine around adriano really and i think a lot of my low self esteem comes from loving him like being rejected and feeling not good enough that kinda thing i think it gave me crazy times of trying to be better and look atleast ok and thats resulted in hating myself for him not liking me back ya no even though charlie...
apparently the medication im on can make ur blood pressure drop when u stand up so that explains all the dizzy shit going on hopefully that stops feeling better rn than before its been pretty tough also decided im not glamourising shit if my emotions are treated like nothing by everyone else i can do that too
Anonymous asked: This is in response to the Anon partially. Thing is the best way to get over depression is to play it down as if its nothing, if you keep feeling sorry for yourself and let it overwhelm you then you won't get better
Anonymous asked: i don't mean to offend you but can you stop romantasising your depression as if it's a cool thing to have please :( i hate the way you talk about it. it's something that takes over people's lives completely and you make it sound like it's nothing, it demeans it completely. but i understand this is a personal blog and you can post what you want so do go ahead and i hope...
ive been continuously watching the walking dead its p sick im also p sick i think its the anti depressants i feel numb and weird but at the same time want to just pass out for years im very jealous of everyone and need to fix myself
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Been asked by brendan to show y’all this event https://www.facebook.com/events/119446461587150/?ref=notif¬if_t=plan_user_invited Basically its a day for lads to wear skirts and such and ladies can wear suits too! It could be seen as problematic if it was talking about trans* issues but its infact for inequality and saying you can wear whatever the fuck you want. Lets get rid of these...
Art are pissed at me and im on a D (but they called home for no reason and were so so dumb and lied about me being late to lesson so fuk them) Photography is chilled but i gotta catch up on so much im on less than a C in coursework I went the doctors again and had the nice woman and she was real nice n gave me anti depressants so this shall be interesting
dying because i dont have a study leave and there is no way i can do a2 aswell as these next couple of months so im looking up floristry n photography courses
didnt go to school today i went to see iron man with adriano instead and had a much better day than i would have at school thing is my parents are pissed cos school rang and they couldnt contact me because i was in the cinema…….. feeling super negative about school again i have my next doctors appointment this friday hopefully this doctor is nicer and actually does something
dont want 2 admit the fact i have no friends now
[[MORE]] really having a bad day i told adriano about the doctors n that and he wasnt supportive at all even though its such a big deal to me and i guess he just isnt the friend i thought he could b i dont know i should be doing work buti cant move but my eyeshadow looks nice
i think im forever distracting myself to feel ok but like that cant be good how can i distract myself but do no thing productive what a waste of time aye excited to finish this year
Because of the crystal-clear water, Flathead Lake...
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[[MORE]]got tons of work to do this week to catch up after these three weeks of being off all my coursework is in for friday and i have to do so so much art because i dont think i have long til my exam and i have to finish adrianos sewing i feel ok about school i can handle the last couple weeks when i thought i couldnt i need to look for alternatives to a2 and do my photography website to b...
i struggled through this year and ive got to the point of having three weeks till my exams left but these three weeks will include so much work and i will end up failing everything can i quit? i cant do this but i know i will be fucked with no a levels? well thats what people will say but a levels teach you shit all and i want to travel and do what i want not learn your shitty shit and waste...
struggliang to sleep i think my hormones are funny cos my depo injection is due im totally dying over charlie because hes been real great recently and i feel good about him and thats nice but i think its cos im tricking myself and not thinking and holding everything in till i explode and die i made my next doctors apointment but its in three weeks and i just want someone to fix me now i have a...
to do list email teacher about coursework .2 re do my coursework .1 take some pics of me and charlie 4 photography take some pictures of my family through window do some sewing for photography revise for philosophy finish my english books book another doctors appointment and hand in the shitty test call driving teacher lady and finally book lessons make photography website take photos...
so much sad in one little nancy and i cant even talk to my friend about it because he will be nasty thankful to have this next week pretty much off but the dread of school is just prolonged